I thought about not writing anything today because nothing has changed. I didn't become motivated overnight. My house is still a disaster, I ate a million things I shouldn't have and time still goes by. Ha! I had it in my head that I would get off work early tonight ( I work 2 pm to midnight) and come home and clean and organize while everyone else is sleeping since I am so convinced it is impossible to do when they are awake. But still here I sit with my tea and a couple scones daydreaming on the computer.
Why is it so easy to sit at work and make list after list of dinner menus, grocery lists, projects to tackle and feel so motivated? Yet when I get home I rarely refer to my dinner plans, food goes bad sitting in the fridge not being prepared, and projects never get started or fizzle out halfway through.
How do people do it. I thought making lists and envisioning what needs to be done would help, but it hasn't. Sometimes I feel that maybe I am just too overwhelmed with all the things I want to do that I can't focus on a single project. Could I have cleaning ADD? I start on one room and before it is done I am on to the next. Leaving my house some what tidy but never ever clean. When I try to take it one room at a time I get frustrated that by the time I am working on the 2nd room the first is already a mess again.
My husband is convinced it is just because we have too much stuff. That getting rid of things will make our house clean. I agree to a point, but he wants to get rid of everything. 'Huge serving dishes? China? Who needs these things we only use them 3-4 times a year?' He'll never understand.
So for now I am going to bed. There are dishes in the sink, toys on the living room floor and piles of folded laundry on the couch. And once again they will wait for tomorrow (or next week)
Later this week I will try to get motivated so I can stop griping about my house and actually blog about the family as this was meant to be. :)
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Monday, March 30, 2009
Motivate Me!!
So I think I have started about 3 different blogs and 3 different sites. One on weight loss, one on fitness and the other I can't recall. Am I dieting or working out? Nope. Would I like to? Maybe. What it comes down to is that I am just plain lazy.
It makes me laugh that I have decided to blog about our lives since it is just one more reason for me to get on the computer while the kids are occupied instead of cleaning or working out or making the world a better place. I have great intentions and high hopes for how I want my home to look, what I want my fitness level to be and how I want to help those less fortunate than myself. But still, I sit at the computer not putting any of these things into practice. So my question to you is: What motivates you?? I rationalize my laziness by saying I would rather spend time with the boys and my husband than have a clean house or be fit. In the grand scheme of life those things don't really matter. But they do. I am embarrassed by my messy house and the dog hair on my furniture when people 'pop in' to say 'Hi'. Besides that fact that I have plenty of down time that could be spent better. I want to stay fit for my kids so I can teach them to be active and play outside and not sit in front of the television or the computer. I want to lead by example. And I realize often times my words do not match my actions.
I have come to think I am a much better person on the inside than the outside. I have good intentions but not a lot of follow through. Although this seems to be just be fuel for the fire, I am hoping that blogging will actually help me get motivated and those who see this will support me in becoming a better person on the outside too.
I am still debating on whether or not to share this site with my family and friends. Sometimes I struggle with sharing my true feelings and desires with those closest to me. I just live the status quo, probably becuase I know I am not likely to follow through with my desires and who wants to look like a failure?
It makes me laugh that I have decided to blog about our lives since it is just one more reason for me to get on the computer while the kids are occupied instead of cleaning or working out or making the world a better place. I have great intentions and high hopes for how I want my home to look, what I want my fitness level to be and how I want to help those less fortunate than myself. But still, I sit at the computer not putting any of these things into practice. So my question to you is: What motivates you?? I rationalize my laziness by saying I would rather spend time with the boys and my husband than have a clean house or be fit. In the grand scheme of life those things don't really matter. But they do. I am embarrassed by my messy house and the dog hair on my furniture when people 'pop in' to say 'Hi'. Besides that fact that I have plenty of down time that could be spent better. I want to stay fit for my kids so I can teach them to be active and play outside and not sit in front of the television or the computer. I want to lead by example. And I realize often times my words do not match my actions.
I have come to think I am a much better person on the inside than the outside. I have good intentions but not a lot of follow through. Although this seems to be just be fuel for the fire, I am hoping that blogging will actually help me get motivated and those who see this will support me in becoming a better person on the outside too.
I am still debating on whether or not to share this site with my family and friends. Sometimes I struggle with sharing my true feelings and desires with those closest to me. I just live the status quo, probably becuase I know I am not likely to follow through with my desires and who wants to look like a failure?
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